Current mood:

cold

Winter Stagnation
It's been a good season for introspection. Not that I ever seem to have a bad one, though I manage to distract myself from time to time... One of my friends from college once described me as "The most aggressively self-aware person I know", which may explain some of my fascination with navel-gazing and the sorts of psychological tricks people use to avoid dealing with unpleasant truths.

The current unpleasant truth that I'm running into is the fact that I've been stagnating for a while now. I haven't run a CoffeeMoot in several months now, I've not attended many Heathen events locally (except for my own semi-masochistic drumming up of Sunna on Saturday), and I've been allowing myself to get sucked into a couple of major time sinks (WOW online and the first season of Babylon 5 on DVD - sometimes both at the same time). I haven't gotten off my ass and finished my essay for the Troth Lore Program, I haven't studied for any of the MCSA certification exams, I haven't sent Yule cards to anyone outside of the immediate family (with one exception). It's not been a terribly productive end of the year.

And I'm kind of tired of that. At least this time around, the mood swing only seems to have held for a few months instead of a couple of years. Maybe getting into the habit of weekly libations to the Aesir and Vanir, Alfar and Disir, and the local Landvaettir is starting to pay off... It's about the only habit I've been trying to maintain over the last few months that has really stuck as yet. Have to see if I can get the physical exercise, yoga, and meditation habits back in the mix as well.